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Monday, November 30, 2009

Paramore Live

SMS conversation I had today:
Me: Hey, look, I got a playlist. And it was awesome!
Evul-chick: Fuck you.

I hope she's not mad for real, but then again, if she is.. score?

I'm stupidly tired, need to get up and do work tomorrow, it's 2 AM, and I spent an hour jumping (me and Viz ended up a feet higher than everyone else during Misery Business.. in time to the music, too.. yeah, it was awesome).

The opening acts were also great, or, well, the 2 we saw properly, anyway (stupid people at the stupid door.. it took us 2 HOURS to get to the stage!). Paper Route were fun, and had a theremine, an accordion, and lotsa weird stuff like that, and was generally really nice to see and listen to. Not fantastic, but good.

You Me at Six was... well, holy hell, those guys kicked some serious ass in the energy department, they just rocked out sooo hard, and were so much fun.

Paramore: well, details tomorrow, but yeah, that was awesome beyond awesome, and I don't even know their songs all that well.

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Ok, so here's what my day was like, because the entire story is pretty damn annoying, I guess.

I barely slept. I got up. i went to school, so exhausted already that all I wanted, really, was my bed. And this was going to be a long day. most of it standing in a line that wasn't open yet so me and Viz could get close to the stage and kick total ass. But first, lecture.

..Or so I thought. Goddamn teachers need to learn how to show up for classes, seriously! Also, best part: class was to start at 10.
10:22 I get a textmessage from Marcus, asking where we'll be. I reply Foo bar, because the teacher didn't show up. Marcus replies with a very concise "...shoot me." Marcus has about 2 hours to school, so yeah, understandably, he was pissed. But we usually find ways to make the trip worthwhile, and we had a laassignmentb and stuff we needed to do, so yeah.
Me, I tried to get a hold of Viz after a while. Apparently the bastard was stuck in the wrong goddamn part of the ccountry, since his car had gotten a flat tire and he couldn't get it fixed until that morning. Bastard was supposed to be home Sunday, now he had a 5 hour drive ahead of him! I mean.. holy..

So I run around nervous about what to do, and laughing at the fact our teacher had now scheduled a new lecture for the afternoon, simultaneous with our lab assignment, in the same course. Faantastic. Robin suggested I just ignore it all. Done and done, I had better things to do, like figure out where the hell Viz was.

Oh well, also, we saw the latest episode of Top gear. That show wins (airship caravan, 'nuff said!).

I abused my rights at school to print my ticket, and got Viz some aspirin, because at 16:40, he finally arrived home, and hey, we're running late because we wanted to be there early, Rise Against's giant lines in mind.

Buy the dude some ibuprofene, then he goes and prints out his tickets and we're finally off! At like 17:30. Dammit.

Could have been worse, was our thought. We arrived at Gullmarsplan at 18:07, took the tram from there to Fryshuset, and the tram was basically empty, and there's no visible lines as we approach. What the hell?
And then we discover the line goes in the opposite direction than it does on, you know, every other show at that place. *sigh* Que 2 goddamn hours of queing and the worst opening of the doors in the history of concerts. How could they have been so freakishly slow? The only bright side was we got redbull, but that was at 18:50, doors were opened at 18:30, and the show started at 19:30. And we got in at 20:00. What the HELL! Also, the guard stole my wayter bottle, so i wouldn't throw it at someone. yeah, I'm gonna pay 400 SEK to throw a water bottle at someone. Dick.

Well, basically skipped the second opener because Viz needed food, and we could sort of hear, and we couldn't get up front anyway, so then it's just way easier to plow through the entire audience once the show starts.
But they were good, although I missed their name, and I'm too lazy to look it up. And they certainly had energy.

Paper Route were also really interesting. Theremines, xylophones, accordions and a slide guitar as well as conventional band instruments made it feel schizophrenic, but that was part of the fun.

So I wasn't prepared for You, me at Six being so much better. Seriously, holy crap those dudes just kicked ASS. And their cover of Lady gaga's Pokerface was, surprisingly enough, really good. Definitely a band i want to see again, and neither me nor viz would be surprised if they headline their own show next year. new album in january, so i should check that out.

Also, we had fun at all the people thinking the band starting were going to be Paramore. We could go on laughing aht the "hah, opening act, fooled ya!" thing all night. Also, we had found a decent spot where we were taller than the rest, and rocked out, and found some people who rocked out as well.Short people. Score!

Paramore setlist ahoy:

Intro
Ignorance- Hey, I sorta knew this one!
Caught Myself
That's What You Get
-Proof this was going to be awesome. Holy HELL people went mad, it was awesome.
Lookin Up-After this, there's a line on my sheet, so i guess they actually did some talking here or something? Or they just changed settings. Either way, their talks were fun. not Stephen Lynch funny, but nobody expected that (or wanted 30 minutes of talking between songs). Lots of "this is an awesome show" and "we're havings o much fun" and screaming from the crowd, and.. well, everyone had an awesome time, Stockholm's a pretty insane place to headline, because we're not too spoiled and love our music.
Emergency
Crushcrushcrush
-Good song, mad audience.. yeah, pretty awesome stuff.
Turn it Off
After this, Haley talked about how they wanted to change up the setlist a bit, and hoped that was okay, so the crowd yelled, of course. And we get:
The Only Exception- All calm, sweet and really nice. Not the best ever, but really nice.
Pressure- Another one I knew, and it was awesomely awesome. And Haley had thrown up the horns, made a "we're all acrobats" comment to the bassplayer and.. well, yeah, it had been an awesome show so far.
Careful
Where the Lines
and finally, "Goodnight Stockholm", making viz super-happy as this is one of his favourite paramore songs:
Decode- It was pretty good, yeah.

Then they left the stage.. aww. Cue obligatory chanting, of course.

Haley comes in and says they thought the show was over, but then, hell, they were gonna play some more songs because they wanted to and this was so fun. And the boys had their acoustic instruments ready, so hey:
Misguided Ghosts-For some reason i'd wanted the empty pictureframes with lightbulbs in to get lit all night, and that finally happened. Noteworthy is that the sorta velvety silver and red background they used went superwell with the spotlights. Light and not light, and totally freaking awesome!
(mariachi intro)- "Stockholm, do you know what's going on? What's going on? I don't know what's going on", and, well, hey, we recognized the intro to:
Misery Business- Goddammn this was SO AWESOME. Me and Viz ignored the fact that we were drenched in sweat from jumping for the past hour and started jumping synchronized to the chorus. of course, to sync it properly, we also ended up leaping a foot into the air each beat, and I think we were noticable, in case anyone had watched the stage, what with Viz towering over everyone already and me being in the 90th percentile in height, hehe. Totally awesome, and all i wanted was hallelujah and For a Pessimist, i'm Pretty optimistic. So new singles make me disappointed, despite being really good:
Brick by Boring Brick- In the end all the other bands of this "minifestival" came out on stage and started jumping like crazy along with everyone else. A really fun moment, I like those. And hey, it was awesome as an ender.

We went to the soundboth and I eyed the setlist 'til the security woman gave it to me, and also gave me and Viz a waterbottle to share. yeah, we needed that, but I wasn't at all tired due to the energy of a great show (and You me At Six being a great warmup, I'd guess). I said it'd be funny if I took the waterbottle and found that guard and thre at in his head. "Betcha didn't see that one coming!" was Viz comment of chouice, mine would have been "Hey, look, there's water bottles inside too!" Sent the text which opened this thing, which was meaner than the one Viz got from Truls, that said she was at a nice concert too, and she hated him. Yay for us?

Took a freaking half hour to get out, and while we wanted to go get food, we had to catch the last trains home, and talked about how that might have been the best concert of the year, or at least one of the best. Yeah, that was awesome.

Went home, showered, ate, attacked in utopia without Angel (I hate doing that, but I ain't installing ANYTHING on this computer) and then i tried to sleep. Should have been far easier than it was.

But it was all so totally worth it!


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Currently
Life Is Not a Waiting Room
By Senses Fail
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Summarizing the past 2 weeks.

In chronological order:

Friday: my computer breaks. I get a nasty cough, which turns into a fever for the next few days. I'm still forced to do work.

Saturday the week after: Cough remains, fever's gone since a few days. Check my e-mail, find out a great guy I'd proudly call friend has died (you all know who this is, and it totally sucks). End up in a state of shock for a while, not sure how badly I'm handling it. Can't really talk to anyone about it.

Today: Well, I was gonna meet that girl I sometimes see, and that would have been nice... but instead I find out she's met a guy she likes for real, so I guess I got dumped, from a non-existing relationshi. Fantastic..

Oh well, tomorrow's the day I probably get elected to be the guy who fixes computers and stuff for the student union next year. Too bad I feel underqualified, because me and the printer had an argument today.

And I needd to do a ton of simple work for our gradwork thing, and I dunno if I'll have the energy. Oh well, worst case scenario, I can end tomorrow with getting hammered and following "the matress" home or something.

And now I feel really selfish because it's "my issues" and people are dead. I miss that guy, I really do. I just don't know how to handle it.


Friday, October 30, 2009

Rise against live

..fuck yeah.

Setlist insofar as I can remember it after a day and extreme exhaustion (seriously so awesome I'm STILL tired from that thing), so the song orders totally messed up in the middle.

Collapse (Post-Amerika)
State of the Union
Long Forgotten Sons
Re-Education through Labor
Paper Wings
Audience of One (dedicated to opening Act The Regulations.. which weren't all that great, btw)
The Dirt Whispered
Savior
Drones
Survive
Dancing for Rain
Blood red, white and Blue
Blood to Bleed
Chamber the Cartridge
The Good left Undone
Prayer of the Refugee
------------intermission----------
Swing Life Away
Hero of War
Give it All
Ready to Fall

..and I think that was all of it. Details.. whenever I feel less exhausted, hehe.


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Currently
Shadowrun
By Data East
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2 ways to tell your penguin is sick

So I've been very, very busy lately, with all sorts of things. School, student union, more school, various other stuff, and it hit the point where all I seemed to do was stress about and end up where people needed me to be, or long for the few hours of sleep I could get.

Well, things cooled down for all of maybe a few days, only to start back up again, and Monday I thought my brain was finally piecing itself together from the stressed out fragments, able to tell which day of the week it was not because of something I had to do, but because it had time to think about these things. I also seemed to see how it would utterly fragment again.

Mind.
Fragmented.
Piecing together.
Getting to grips.
Time.
Get a grip.
Panicking.
Shatters.


Something like that. The original version pieced into my head sounded better, I think.

I'm probably still drunk now. Went to the pub today, was only going to have like a simple rm and coke and then go home and do more work, or anything to ease the restlessness I feel whenever I sit still for more than a few seconds
nowadays. Found good company, and so, a buncha beer, not anything worth calling a proper meal. About the only time I have the energy to relax a tiny bit is when I force myself to, while holding a beer in my hand, because you can't down the thing and rush off to do things, although I want to. I seriously think it's a work injury, and all I seem to be able to care about lately is working, or possibly gaming, trying to squeeze that in, and trying to experience something cyberpunk-ish. Reading Neuromancer at the current moment, it probably screws me up even more.

Even sex feels like a chore at the moment. She keeps calling, part of me wishes I could just avoud going there altogether, and it feels like I'm forcing myself, not like I genuinely want it, anymore. And it's emotionless, from my end, I think. Friendship, acquaintance, that's all.

On the way home, I found myself asking why I wasn't just running away somewhere, if only temporary. Do like Thuna, take a vacation somewhere. Well, aside from the financial bits, because the thought never occured to me. I have to do this. It's what I can do, and if not what I can do, what i can try to do. I'm furious large parts of the time, people claiming things are obvious but they never, ever told me, and they sure aren't obvious. At times I play with the thought of leaving before realizing how incredibly dumb that would be, it's like suicide, moronic and incredibly counterproductive. I'm here in my life now, it's far better than it ever was before, and I'm so close to being something I could enjoy. But I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes, really, truly losing my mind, and I wish I could keep track of the days, or what my name is, really, and how to do things. But it all seems secondary to getting stuff done at the moment, and that terrifies me, especially when I don't ever feel like getting drunk, really, and all it does is waste my time, and yet that's the one time I don't feel like I have to solve everything, instantly, constantly like everyone else seems to ask of me.

I seemed to hit a sort of manic need to play Shadowrun for the SNES today, despite the game actually being quite poor. I mean, the setting is awesome, but the game itself is pretty shite. Combat is based far too heavily on luck, th plot is weakly defined and the entire thing smells of trial and eror and an incredible need to try everythinbg with everything, really. And yet, part of me wants to be playing it right now. The other part feels the standard exhaustion come, which means I'll drga myself to sleep yet again, nearly passing out from fatigue. And tomorrow it all starts again. And it won't go fast enough, and the spasms to get somewhere and be more efficient will take place. It's most likely a work injury. Somehow.


Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Currently
Enemy Territory: Quake Wars
By Activision
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Full-swing back into it

Ok, so I spent the summer really bored and with a lot of days where I did absolutely squat, and they bored the hell out of me. Now, I don't have time to be bored, and I do pretty fun stuff, but I sorta wish the two'd mix, so I could get a few moments to play RE4, dagnabbit!

Today, after a luxurious 5 hours of sleep, I got up, nose clogged from that freaking cold that's been haunting me since last week (where I was also in super-high demand.. and instead just played Batman: Arkham Asylum with Ante.. good times), went to school, meet Ante and Robert, we've got the kick-off day, so thus, time to rock. Set up Tekken: Dark Resurrection on two dancemats, then chill just a bit too much lisrtening to awesome videogame music because we were going to have that as another contest, then all of a sudden 2 hours are gone, it's noon, and Ante's off to finish the list of msuic while me, Robert and Åhlen handle a buncha fairly uninterested folks and some who seemed a bit more into it. Yay. And admittedly Tekken on a dancemat is hilarious. I managed to toss Ante, that was awesome.

So while I try and come up with an awesome tourney system for Pass the Pigs Åhlen keeps track of who plays Tekken, and the pub smells terrible for some reason.. greeaaaat. EVentually, i gave up on the tourney idea, and now I'm unsure if people even got points for that one, so cruuud.

Oh well, at least the music part was awesome, and I still have my voice. And yes, Vampire Killer's alternate name is Deja Vu, that one NOBODY knew. Bah, kids these days! Hehe.

I went to a lecture about.. honestly, not a whole fat lot, but I got a nice powernap, then I chilled for all of maybe 20 minutes before rushing up to work on our supersecret project, caught the last subway home, got home at 1:44, tried on the shoes mom bought because the ones I own aren't exactly whole anymore and I don't have the time, and now I have to read a text for the seminar at 10 AM tomorrow.

And of course, Ante pointed out we need to meet at 9 to come up with a gaming idea, I hope they have a plan because that's a SINGLE hour.. we're boned. And once I'm done with that, it's back to super-secret project until I manage o get home tomorrow. Yay... Sometimes it sucks to be so awesome you're in high demand (yes, I lie to myself at the moment)

So basically, those 5 hours last night WAS a luxury compared to now, I think.

Edit: Oh yeah, I also have another deadline for monday.. stravag! The chances of that one happening (I'd love to, I would, but o little time) seam to be slowly floating away to the horizon...

Super-secret bit that isn't yet under an NDA is for Friday. glurg



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